as the new year draws close and we get away from the year that was.. the festive people of this festive city make plans to get away...
to bring in the new yeat in style..
to do something special for themselves.. something unique... some go there..
cos its the best they can afford.. so go there cos its mighty convenient...
and some go there cos such was their plan...
Goa the land of golden sand and other nice things (which i may not be able to throw much light on.. as i've never gone there)
the distinct chords goa stricks in my mind are...
1 of my closest friends had a brilliant time with her bf there....
1 of my other friends went there with a few friends to celebrate the end of her CAT..
and when another 1 of my close friends was going to go there for last new yrs.. tsunami happnd.. and she shelved her trip.. .
hmm..
doesn't quite seem like a yr has passed since the advent of the killer waves...
1 of my friends picked up Garage Inc. from there.. coz thtz where he first saw it...
and the sweetest of all.. is ofcourse when my folks went there for a week and i had a blast at home...
haha.. who'd believe there can be so many associations to a place.. without having even gone there
anyway.. as the new yr comes around.. these 3 friends.. head-back to goa...
one is newly married.. so honey-mooning..
one is about to get engaged.. and is holidaying..
and the other is yet celebrating... friends....
different people headed to the same place for different reasons.. with different set of objectives.. and yet ending up within a square mile or so of each other...
maybe it is coz they are from bombay.. only the global-village could define their proximity and their dissonance
Friday, December 23, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
random thoughts...
She: What is your take on friends getting married?
He: Friends... getting involved is damned convenient.. if they get married that's good.. but if things fuck-up.. you lose a friend and a lover.. kinda sad eh?
He: Whats your take on friends with benefits?
She: no-reply
(two days later)
He: Whats your take on friends with benefits?
She: no-reply
(two-days later)
He:dude.. don't you have an opinion?
She: But i don't understand your question... aren't all friends beneficial... IN SOME-ways.. atleast?
He:(stifling immense laughter) hmm.. .Friends with benefits.. are like fuck-buddies in a lesser degree probably...
and in his head play the alanis lines...
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
She: yr definition of benefits is quite diff. well.. i never needed such friends.. nor intend on being 1
She: Your point of view on things scandalizes me so much... i feel i live in a different world.
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Deep thgt on a well-slept afternoon.. mid-life crisis... festive-season-nearing..monkey's having better love-lives... and... impending exams..
what is the best thing i've done till date..
Started boyaz... lol.. funny when you think in restrospect.. put things into perspective.. and all that jazz.. you realise.. how little the things we burn our blood over.. and toil so much for.. really matter...
anyway.. since the yr is coming to an end.. i have decided to have a new yr resolution.. so the next few days will be spent thinking on that one..
He: Friends... getting involved is damned convenient.. if they get married that's good.. but if things fuck-up.. you lose a friend and a lover.. kinda sad eh?
He: Whats your take on friends with benefits?
She: no-reply
(two days later)
He: Whats your take on friends with benefits?
She: no-reply
(two-days later)
He:dude.. don't you have an opinion?
She: But i don't understand your question... aren't all friends beneficial... IN SOME-ways.. atleast?
He:(stifling immense laughter) hmm.. .Friends with benefits.. are like fuck-buddies in a lesser degree probably...
and in his head play the alanis lines...
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
She: yr definition of benefits is quite diff. well.. i never needed such friends.. nor intend on being 1
She: Your point of view on things scandalizes me so much... i feel i live in a different world.
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Deep thgt on a well-slept afternoon.. mid-life crisis... festive-season-nearing..monkey's having better love-lives... and... impending exams..
what is the best thing i've done till date..
Started boyaz... lol.. funny when you think in restrospect.. put things into perspective.. and all that jazz.. you realise.. how little the things we burn our blood over.. and toil so much for.. really matter...
anyway.. since the yr is coming to an end.. i have decided to have a new yr resolution.. so the next few days will be spent thinking on that one..
Monday, December 19, 2005
tuesday mornin blues
if i worked too hard sunday-nite and monday went by in a haze of sleepiness... can there be a case of tuesday afternoon blues?
suddenly i feel like... the more you see.. the lesser you actually can tell.. experience instead of wisening you... sometimes makes everything blurry because you have seen do much.. rationalised things on both sides of the normal...
when the running seems in a direction that can best be termed as pointless.. and everything eludes you.. most of all a purpose and a meaning....
i am reminded of an old friend who said.. "life is elsewhere"
suddenly i feel like... the more you see.. the lesser you actually can tell.. experience instead of wisening you... sometimes makes everything blurry because you have seen do much.. rationalised things on both sides of the normal...
when the running seems in a direction that can best be termed as pointless.. and everything eludes you.. most of all a purpose and a meaning....
i am reminded of an old friend who said.. "life is elsewhere"
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Thursday, December 15, 2005
there's something about 3 am nights.. even if you can get here every night of the week.. something about them yet remains charming... be it, the emptiness of the road when you're driving back home... the no-nonsense music play in the radio... the odd-cop on the road reminding you.. that civilization does not sleep in the night.. despite what some people would like to say about the law & order in this city...
the stories we create on these 3 am nights... in a few yrs.. as we hit middle-age.. will be the only one's that we'll have to share.. these will then be the fond re-collections of days when we were young.. when we could follow our dreams.. we had the will & youth on our side, to change stuff...
he'll be a different man 5 yrs from now.. he's already so different anyway.. she'll be slightly different but yet with a very similar role... their differences will merge into commonalities but they'll yet all be distinct individuals all trying to carve a niche.. fighting for their own space..
and hopefully even then i can drive back alone at 3:30 am... and reflect upon their lives and once more try and enjoy the journey than rush towards the destination!
the stories we create on these 3 am nights... in a few yrs.. as we hit middle-age.. will be the only one's that we'll have to share.. these will then be the fond re-collections of days when we were young.. when we could follow our dreams.. we had the will & youth on our side, to change stuff...
he'll be a different man 5 yrs from now.. he's already so different anyway.. she'll be slightly different but yet with a very similar role... their differences will merge into commonalities but they'll yet all be distinct individuals all trying to carve a niche.. fighting for their own space..
and hopefully even then i can drive back alone at 3:30 am... and reflect upon their lives and once more try and enjoy the journey than rush towards the destination!
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
questions?
a friend of mine.. sent me these 20-30 questions which are rather global-gyaan or stuff you try to think about on the macro-level... the bigger questions of life so to speak.... i will try and put forth my view on some of these.. and look fwd to hear from u guys..
What happens when someone’s freedom infiltrates on my own personal freedom? (Yatin)
well.. if this is a person i am friendly with, then i'd try to accomodate and/or propogate their freedom to the extent it is tolerable.. but when it crosses a line.. i'd show them their limits.
.
e.g. say someone is friendly with you.. but is very touchy.. so you'd allow them to be such, knowing its their nature upto some extent, but if it becomes a problem you will draw a line for them..
if the person involved is someone i don't know or care about. i will safe-gaurd my personal freedom at all costs.. since that is all that matters to me.
looking at the macro level.. If this happens in business or something.. i think the answer will be that its a case of survival of the fittest and each person tries to maximum or safe-guard their interests at whatever costs... and may the more determined souls win...
What happens when someone’s freedom infiltrates on my own personal freedom? (Yatin)
well.. if this is a person i am friendly with, then i'd try to accomodate and/or propogate their freedom to the extent it is tolerable.. but when it crosses a line.. i'd show them their limits.
.
e.g. say someone is friendly with you.. but is very touchy.. so you'd allow them to be such, knowing its their nature upto some extent, but if it becomes a problem you will draw a line for them..
if the person involved is someone i don't know or care about. i will safe-gaurd my personal freedom at all costs.. since that is all that matters to me.
looking at the macro level.. If this happens in business or something.. i think the answer will be that its a case of survival of the fittest and each person tries to maximum or safe-guard their interests at whatever costs... and may the more determined souls win...
Sunday, December 04, 2005
the authority of excesses
i've always believed in the power of X's... (pun in pronunciation intentional!)
so why should excessive alcohol be an exception.. even though some people may think a lot of alcohol is actually bad and takes the toll on your mind and body and work and blah!
the point of view that if you do excess of something.. you see it in a ttly new light.. and find new pleasure points in it.. got reinforced tonight!
me and a few friends were sitting for beer ... this was college group and the discussions were usual.. BITCHING about this and that.. love and lost-love how prof's are crap and how much we can do... i don't even need to mention all this... and this is a session or a setting seen only too often... by normal standards of alcohol consumption.. or the ones considered as the right amount of consumption almost all of us will be termed drunkards... anyway..
then suddenly i brought up the topic of how one prof had said our presentations are not creative enough and how we could do so much more...
at this point... 6 people in their early 20's had a 20 min discussion about the types of presentations we make.. .lack and possibility of creativity in terms of content and visuals... the possibilities and so forth.. this wasn't just a discussion but a full-blown debate with each set recommending a different agenda.. now this i think is something so special.. talks volumes about how seriously MBA's especially those from our newly re-christened institution in its silver jubilee year take their studies.. 6 men sitting in a dingy bar and discussing presentation innovation on a Sunday at about 1 am.. speaks for itself!
which reminds me of another great quality of our great school which was highlighted by a dear friend a few months back...
we have a life comparable to a 2 yr vacation.. popular consensus is.. we park ourselves over here so we can rest for sometime and then we go out and work in the corporate world relentlessly.. coz we've already had excessive holidaying and vacation (this reiterates the point the first half of this blog tries to make.. about excess and its weird effects on the after-excess-behavior) and we think that we don't under-go enough rigor or hard-work in our college days.. as almost all of our prof's have no clue what they're doing.. and then suddenly.. one-fine-day! there walks in this prof who has alleged revolutionary ideas and gives us lots and lots of work and assignments to do.. and just like usual students complain again.. this time about how we are from this esteemed institution.. and not so accustomed to hard-work and the addnl work-load.. affects our leisure time...
I love it when there are certain things you can be sure about in life.. like people complaining about the faculty irrespective of their ability or interest.
so why should excessive alcohol be an exception.. even though some people may think a lot of alcohol is actually bad and takes the toll on your mind and body and work and blah!
the point of view that if you do excess of something.. you see it in a ttly new light.. and find new pleasure points in it.. got reinforced tonight!
me and a few friends were sitting for beer ... this was college group and the discussions were usual.. BITCHING about this and that.. love and lost-love how prof's are crap and how much we can do... i don't even need to mention all this... and this is a session or a setting seen only too often... by normal standards of alcohol consumption.. or the ones considered as the right amount of consumption almost all of us will be termed drunkards... anyway..
then suddenly i brought up the topic of how one prof had said our presentations are not creative enough and how we could do so much more...
at this point... 6 people in their early 20's had a 20 min discussion about the types of presentations we make.. .lack and possibility of creativity in terms of content and visuals... the possibilities and so forth.. this wasn't just a discussion but a full-blown debate with each set recommending a different agenda.. now this i think is something so special.. talks volumes about how seriously MBA's especially those from our newly re-christened institution in its silver jubilee year take their studies.. 6 men sitting in a dingy bar and discussing presentation innovation on a Sunday at about 1 am.. speaks for itself!
which reminds me of another great quality of our great school which was highlighted by a dear friend a few months back...
we have a life comparable to a 2 yr vacation.. popular consensus is.. we park ourselves over here so we can rest for sometime and then we go out and work in the corporate world relentlessly.. coz we've already had excessive holidaying and vacation (this reiterates the point the first half of this blog tries to make.. about excess and its weird effects on the after-excess-behavior) and we think that we don't under-go enough rigor or hard-work in our college days.. as almost all of our prof's have no clue what they're doing.. and then suddenly.. one-fine-day! there walks in this prof who has alleged revolutionary ideas and gives us lots and lots of work and assignments to do.. and just like usual students complain again.. this time about how we are from this esteemed institution.. and not so accustomed to hard-work and the addnl work-load.. affects our leisure time...
I love it when there are certain things you can be sure about in life.. like people complaining about the faculty irrespective of their ability or interest.
Monday, November 28, 2005
Charade
the nape of her neck....
the close-up to her lips
the curve of her breast
and her shiny white teeth
Images left with me,
are mine always to keep
We shift & We stagnate
We move a million steps
Trying to remain the same
What miles couldn't magnify
Moods can deviate
And then her hair falls on top of my head
And she smells so great always!!
A child to protect
A mistake to learn from
She's my energy drink
& saps life out of me
the close-up to her lips
the curve of her breast
and her shiny white teeth
Images left with me,
are mine always to keep
We shift & We stagnate
We move a million steps
Trying to remain the same
What miles couldn't magnify
Moods can deviate
And then her hair falls on top of my head
And she smells so great always!!
A child to protect
A mistake to learn from
She's my energy drink
& saps life out of me
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Once upon a birthday...
its been a couple of years now.. since i celebrated.. my birthday.. or cut a cake on it.. or did anything formal.. its partly good and bad.. though last nite i did have some form of birthday dinner.. but then considering the recent past.. that's hardly anything close to a party...
so last year.. it was this cousin's wedding on the previous night... which meant i was with family.. that day.. course i cud've chosen to be here.. but something told me i had to go there.. and then ppl around me were drinking.. but i was with family..so... and then we spent till about 5 am... to finish the fera's.. and then till 7 am to transfer all the stuff back and transport the people back... slept a few hours and then drove inter-state where i was on the verge of falling asleep.. for about 3.5 hours in the afternoon.. reached my nani's house... slept 6 - 7 woke up the next morning.. and yr 22 was over :P
this yr.. well.. it started with organising n working hard for the alumni dinner.. just like good old days of colloseum... and then lots of drinks + lots of drinks + lots of drinks followed... by the end of it... i was sloshed.. all over the place... and it took 6 good men to get me back to the hostel.. at abt 3 am... then ofcourse i woke up at 11.. came home.. changed into something sensible.. spent the afternoon hearing about the fights that broke out the previous night.. and then... sleeping 3 hours in a class...
finally met.. her for a while.. .and then. took a few of them for dinner... funny dinner 'twas.. unfortunately.. no snaps of it... wud've been a site-for-sore-eyes with all that water-melon juice flowing... then ofcourse.. some of 'em had 2 have beer again.. so we were on the rd till 3 am... watching my friends... drainin the night in a golden fizzy.... buzz....
now lets look fwd to the next yr...
so last year.. it was this cousin's wedding on the previous night... which meant i was with family.. that day.. course i cud've chosen to be here.. but something told me i had to go there.. and then ppl around me were drinking.. but i was with family..so... and then we spent till about 5 am... to finish the fera's.. and then till 7 am to transfer all the stuff back and transport the people back... slept a few hours and then drove inter-state where i was on the verge of falling asleep.. for about 3.5 hours in the afternoon.. reached my nani's house... slept 6 - 7 woke up the next morning.. and yr 22 was over :P
this yr.. well.. it started with organising n working hard for the alumni dinner.. just like good old days of colloseum... and then lots of drinks + lots of drinks + lots of drinks followed... by the end of it... i was sloshed.. all over the place... and it took 6 good men to get me back to the hostel.. at abt 3 am... then ofcourse i woke up at 11.. came home.. changed into something sensible.. spent the afternoon hearing about the fights that broke out the previous night.. and then... sleeping 3 hours in a class...
finally met.. her for a while.. .and then. took a few of them for dinner... funny dinner 'twas.. unfortunately.. no snaps of it... wud've been a site-for-sore-eyes with all that water-melon juice flowing... then ofcourse.. some of 'em had 2 have beer again.. so we were on the rd till 3 am... watching my friends... drainin the night in a golden fizzy.... buzz....
now lets look fwd to the next yr...
Thursday, November 17, 2005
listenin to the past...
i heard it after SO LONG... on my drive back home.. from college... tonight... its funny what a large gap there is between randomly listening to music... and actually HEARING a song.. like you were living those words.. like they meant so much more than jst empty song lyrics.. and you knew what the guy felt.. .suddenly i rolled up all the windows... pushed the volume higher... and it seemd like the setting of another song from her cd... "ready,steady....go!"
anyway.. so hearing that song after so long.. suddenly reminded me of him... how me him and a few others... would dissect each and every word of this song.. how we'd contemplate what he meant... what was he really good or bad at... and how we'd sit together... all of us... no guitar... no other instrument.. and just singing in tune.. with our mental play-back.. sing the whole song...
and how we counted down slowly each and every one of those... nine.. ."a denial"'s
life goes on... no denial
anyway.. so hearing that song after so long.. suddenly reminded me of him... how me him and a few others... would dissect each and every word of this song.. how we'd contemplate what he meant... what was he really good or bad at... and how we'd sit together... all of us... no guitar... no other instrument.. and just singing in tune.. with our mental play-back.. sing the whole song...
and how we counted down slowly each and every one of those... nine.. ."a denial"'s
life goes on... no denial
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
9/11
funny thought...
but do you guys think... 9-11... happened.. on that very day... coz the americans are so much in love with a sense of security.. and dialing 911..
you guys may have heard/ though of this before... it jst came to my mind right now..
but do you guys think... 9-11... happened.. on that very day... coz the americans are so much in love with a sense of security.. and dialing 911..
you guys may have heard/ though of this before... it jst came to my mind right now..
Monday, November 14, 2005
solicited advice!
its funny when i think of some of the theories i come up with.. and then when i look back upon them.. it seems quite fun...
like this 1 time.. i gave him this theory.. about how at each level in life.. we start at the lowest point... so if you keep waiting to leap off to the highest point of level 2... chances are you'll be stuck at level 1 for so long.. that level 2 will be redundant even when you reach it.. and so.. life is a trade-off as there can never be enough time to get things just right.. and we almost always have to leap.. before we're totally ready...
and then.. today.. again i was giving him big advice.. about the new found favorite past-time of the youth... and put things in a funny.. semi-realistic perspective i told him... each min of thoughtful papersolving will get him a %ile.. higher.. and the moment he slackens and makes it a mechanical job.. the performance will suffer and his result will be stagnant .. so out of the 120 mins.. say 15 r given to browse thru the 3 sections.. and 5 kept for coloring those ovals... after this if the man can keep his mind open for 100 mins... he could get 100 percentile...
i wonder if any-one-else ever thought of it that way...
i wonder if such-a line could motivate him...
if it could.. i wonder if he'd make a better motivational speaker than me ;)
like this 1 time.. i gave him this theory.. about how at each level in life.. we start at the lowest point... so if you keep waiting to leap off to the highest point of level 2... chances are you'll be stuck at level 1 for so long.. that level 2 will be redundant even when you reach it.. and so.. life is a trade-off as there can never be enough time to get things just right.. and we almost always have to leap.. before we're totally ready...
and then.. today.. again i was giving him big advice.. about the new found favorite past-time of the youth... and put things in a funny.. semi-realistic perspective i told him... each min of thoughtful papersolving will get him a %ile.. higher.. and the moment he slackens and makes it a mechanical job.. the performance will suffer and his result will be stagnant .. so out of the 120 mins.. say 15 r given to browse thru the 3 sections.. and 5 kept for coloring those ovals... after this if the man can keep his mind open for 100 mins... he could get 100 percentile...
i wonder if any-one-else ever thought of it that way...
i wonder if such-a line could motivate him...
if it could.. i wonder if he'd make a better motivational speaker than me ;)
Friday, November 11, 2005
unsolicited advice
so for once i didn't have my car.. i dropped her home around 11:20.. the guy said he knew the way home.. afterall if the rickshawalla knew all of mumbai.. how could he not know mahakali.. i concurred with the man .and then on the 20 odd min rick ride home.. i was on the phone.. just before getting home i hung up.. .as i was getting off and paying the man … this happened
All of this with a very serious constipated look on his face.. similar to the one you’d see on serial killers with utmost concentration!
Him: tum college wagera jata hai ki beechmein hi padhai chod diya
Me: nahi nahi… mein college mein hoon, MBA kar raha hoon
Him: Haa, padhai karne ka.. bahut zaroori hai
Me: haan padhai tau hai… sahi baat hai
Him: Ye ladki log ke chakar mein nahi fasne ka… khali time kharab karti hai… tum ko barbaad karegi… padhai pe dhyaan dene ka…
Talk of unsolicited advice!
All of this with a very serious constipated look on his face.. similar to the one you’d see on serial killers with utmost concentration!
Him: tum college wagera jata hai ki beechmein hi padhai chod diya
Me: nahi nahi… mein college mein hoon, MBA kar raha hoon
Him: Haa, padhai karne ka.. bahut zaroori hai
Me: haan padhai tau hai… sahi baat hai
Him: Ye ladki log ke chakar mein nahi fasne ka… khali time kharab karti hai… tum ko barbaad karegi… padhai pe dhyaan dene ka…
Talk of unsolicited advice!
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
stating the obvious
today... we shall delve upon a rather commonly known theory.. coz for once in our lives... it affects us in an un-common way...
the self-image or self-worth that a person has... determines how safe/insecure he feels about the people around him..
that is the essential crux of this post.. and then to drive home the point you can probably expound on the theory that the times when we do feel insecure or un-safe or likely to lose our loved ones is when we're not confident that our personalities or what we bring into that relationship is enough to make them stay with us...
its something i felt with and in.. all of my relationships.. and something which became glaringly evident in the non-relationships also....
it is good sometimes to know so much about yourself and the kind of things that affect you... and then yet to romanticize life.. if you junk all these learnings and keep living with your mistakes anyway... where is the smart man going to go?
she'd once told me i am a bundle of joy... when i look back, very often i only see a bundle of errors .. the choicest mistakes done with crackling delight
she was beautiful, smart and hopeful
she wanted to show me the light
turns out i was blind!
the self-image or self-worth that a person has... determines how safe/insecure he feels about the people around him..
that is the essential crux of this post.. and then to drive home the point you can probably expound on the theory that the times when we do feel insecure or un-safe or likely to lose our loved ones is when we're not confident that our personalities or what we bring into that relationship is enough to make them stay with us...
its something i felt with and in.. all of my relationships.. and something which became glaringly evident in the non-relationships also....
it is good sometimes to know so much about yourself and the kind of things that affect you... and then yet to romanticize life.. if you junk all these learnings and keep living with your mistakes anyway... where is the smart man going to go?
she'd once told me i am a bundle of joy... when i look back, very often i only see a bundle of errors .. the choicest mistakes done with crackling delight
she was beautiful, smart and hopeful
she wanted to show me the light
turns out i was blind!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
future-proofing
idle-contemplation about my future... reminded me of her words.. that she always saw a/some potential in me.. maybe that of a un-cut diamond.. or that she always thought i'd be successful... and then i connected this with the story-line of minority report... or any time-travel fantasy.. and the concept is...
that...
if you could find a way to get into the future and find-out how the events would un-fold... you could go back in to the present and ensure a better tomorrow. NOW, if only tomorrow's business-men could all go into the future.. and see the great conglomerate that i would build. all the people that would be my future competition could come back to today.. and make me some sort of token payment. on a recurring basis, to ensure that i do not enter their line of business and destroy them as my future-past-competitiors.
this way... i could get paid for doing nothing.. coz my nothing here would be very beneficial to their lives...
now if only science could take us where my mind went.. and if only more people read this blog.
kind friends.. .spread the word!!
that...
if you could find a way to get into the future and find-out how the events would un-fold... you could go back in to the present and ensure a better tomorrow. NOW, if only tomorrow's business-men could all go into the future.. and see the great conglomerate that i would build. all the people that would be my future competition could come back to today.. and make me some sort of token payment. on a recurring basis, to ensure that i do not enter their line of business and destroy them as my future-past-competitiors.
this way... i could get paid for doing nothing.. coz my nothing here would be very beneficial to their lives...
now if only science could take us where my mind went.. and if only more people read this blog.
kind friends.. .spread the word!!
Monday, October 31, 2005
do you realise?
Whenever i look at you!
i See immense potential
and then i realise
you will never realise any of it
i See immense potential
and then i realise
you will never realise any of it
Sunday, October 30, 2005
things movies teach me....
the other day.. was by far the funniest thing i heard in a movie...
a mother-in-law-to-be wore a black dress at her son's wedding.... coz.. she didn't like her son's choice.. and said.. she was in mourning..
now if you have only one son.. .and that's his only wedding.. how funny a thing is that to do...
i tihnk like me.. them believe in ... doing all things that give.. maximum fun!
and then... today.. we saw the down side of being with someone better than u... wher yr perpetually insecure....luckily for me. .ther's no1 better
a mother-in-law-to-be wore a black dress at her son's wedding.... coz.. she didn't like her son's choice.. and said.. she was in mourning..
now if you have only one son.. .and that's his only wedding.. how funny a thing is that to do...
i tihnk like me.. them believe in ... doing all things that give.. maximum fun!
and then... today.. we saw the down side of being with someone better than u... wher yr perpetually insecure....luckily for me. .ther's no1 better
Thursday, October 27, 2005
the insignificance of numbers...
there were 21 of them....
they took 16 out of 60
3 rejected me for what i'd done
4 for how i spoke
n 4 more for the way i look
10 of them i ignored...
and then when i look back upon the last 6 months.. i am the most-active-kid...
and then when i consider the people they took. i have little to consider...
didn't i always say numbers always lie... i like my reality. or what is left of it
they took 16 out of 60
3 rejected me for what i'd done
4 for how i spoke
n 4 more for the way i look
10 of them i ignored...
and then when i look back upon the last 6 months.. i am the most-active-kid...
and then when i consider the people they took. i have little to consider...
didn't i always say numbers always lie... i like my reality. or what is left of it
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
music..
music is sucha powerful.. loveable thing....
i fall in love.. when i hear her phone grunt 'smells like teen spirit'.. its sucha high...
i fall in love with her voice.. when she says... its a sound that only i can hear...
and this as i type.. is 15 mins away from a financial presentation which i know nothing about....
but as he says... sab moh-maya hai...
is it more important to post this blog or read the case.. so i have opinion on what i will be speaking about... i think the choice was already made.. a while back ;)
festive seasons are so nice.. so special.. u rise above all petty things like seminars, festivals, family obligations... grades, presentations and social obligations..
cause...
Listen when I'm silent there's a
Sound that only you can hear
Listen when it's quiet I know
You can hear it, cover up your ears
Cover up your ears
i fall in love.. when i hear her phone grunt 'smells like teen spirit'.. its sucha high...
i fall in love with her voice.. when she says... its a sound that only i can hear...
and this as i type.. is 15 mins away from a financial presentation which i know nothing about....
but as he says... sab moh-maya hai...
is it more important to post this blog or read the case.. so i have opinion on what i will be speaking about... i think the choice was already made.. a while back ;)
festive seasons are so nice.. so special.. u rise above all petty things like seminars, festivals, family obligations... grades, presentations and social obligations..
cause...
Listen when I'm silent there's a
Sound that only you can hear
Listen when it's quiet I know
You can hear it, cover up your ears
Cover up your ears
names....
this song reminded me of her.... her uniqueness... and how i could, never name her name..
Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star?
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name
she was unique when i fell for her..
she remained unique in what we did...
she still is unique in how she plays me....
this probably deserves a sufficiently unique ending?
Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star?
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name
she was unique when i fell for her..
she remained unique in what we did...
she still is unique in how she plays me....
this probably deserves a sufficiently unique ending?
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
summitt
if wishes were horses
kings'd fly
if she was any more real
this life'd be a lie
she says she likes me
for who i am
for what i stand for
and the things that i do
but she isn't tied-down
she couldn't get in such-an-arrangement
she is averse to a-simple-kind-of-life
kings'd fly
if she was any more real
this life'd be a lie
she says she likes me
for who i am
for what i stand for
and the things that i do
but she isn't tied-down
she couldn't get in such-an-arrangement
she is averse to a-simple-kind-of-life
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Abortion
Sometimes there is an abrupt ending to promising stories, sometimes man wills it… sometimes circumstances do it… sometimes the situation takes a life of its on & takes matters in its own hands. It isn’t about the relevance of the instance or the significance of it… it is usually just there to live with and deal with… its not about the person either.
But when things do end, do change there is a fresh-ness that follows… an escape from the realm of familiarity… from the realm of helplessness, the pressure, the despondency and there’s something to smile about again… something to fall in love with… Someone gives way to something and nothing becomes no-one.
But when things do end, do change there is a fresh-ness that follows… an escape from the realm of familiarity… from the realm of helplessness, the pressure, the despondency and there’s something to smile about again… something to fall in love with… Someone gives way to something and nothing becomes no-one.
Friday, October 14, 2005
Prime-time
the time allocated to a person in the confines of my head.. would also be an indicator of how relevant or significant their presence is to me... how much their absence can hurt me.. and how their un-knowing actions cause the greatest dis-comfort.. the joy in their touch and the unity of dedication.. all these thoughts when dedicated to a certain person for whatever duration is called their showing on prime-time.
Prime-time is usually inversely proportional to the good times in their lives… as at any given point of time… only so much happiness can exist on this planet, so, when one person is happy… another has to be equally miserable… sometimes both are miserable and maybe this is the only way there is equitable distribution of wealth.
Prime-time is usually inversely proportional to the good times in their lives… as at any given point of time… only so much happiness can exist on this planet, so, when one person is happy… another has to be equally miserable… sometimes both are miserable and maybe this is the only way there is equitable distribution of wealth.
Monday, October 10, 2005
ode.. continued
and... something that happend to someone in the last 4 hours... reminded me.. .another reason i like women so much.. or enjoy sharing a drink with them!!
is coz they never get piss drunk and bad-mouth ppl or come down to physical blows...
the worst that can happen if the woman with you gets really drunk is.. .she'll be easy to get in to bed... that most often might not be sucha bad thing after-all..
wonder where this puts alcohol.. or what would be the right company for drinking..
is coz they never get piss drunk and bad-mouth ppl or come down to physical blows...
the worst that can happen if the woman with you gets really drunk is.. .she'll be easy to get in to bed... that most often might not be sucha bad thing after-all..
wonder where this puts alcohol.. or what would be the right company for drinking..
Ode to the other-kind!
Women are such wonderful people... really my favorite half of the human race.. i don't think even an hour passes by when i am not using/reminded of... something someone taught me once upon a time...
ofcourse most of it usually from so long back in life.. .and seems so much from the past.. that i wonder if i have stopped my learning now... and if i have learnt enough.. but then when has a student ever felt confident about all the learning they could get from the master.. there always seemed more.. especially for someone like me.. (this no-one else is supposed to know.. or go figure)
i was just in the mood of a couple of beers tonight.. nothing exceedingly drunken.. and it reminded me of someone from again SO LONG BACK and her theory of excess's... and how it wasn't always about going all the way.. and how different degrees of things held different levels of satisfaction.... i was ofcourse.. young and un-aware then... now i understand and well like in most cases.. i can only understand :P
so much about them i admire.. from the obvious simplicities to the spinning complexities.. (i don't think i've met any simpler than me though) or any more complex than her.. and yet their charms would remain un-matched... their ways would remain just as special... and my love for them.. hmm i wonder what comes after this!
ofcourse most of it usually from so long back in life.. .and seems so much from the past.. that i wonder if i have stopped my learning now... and if i have learnt enough.. but then when has a student ever felt confident about all the learning they could get from the master.. there always seemed more.. especially for someone like me.. (this no-one else is supposed to know.. or go figure)
i was just in the mood of a couple of beers tonight.. nothing exceedingly drunken.. and it reminded me of someone from again SO LONG BACK and her theory of excess's... and how it wasn't always about going all the way.. and how different degrees of things held different levels of satisfaction.... i was ofcourse.. young and un-aware then... now i understand and well like in most cases.. i can only understand :P
so much about them i admire.. from the obvious simplicities to the spinning complexities.. (i don't think i've met any simpler than me though) or any more complex than her.. and yet their charms would remain un-matched... their ways would remain just as special... and my love for them.. hmm i wonder what comes after this!
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Thursday, October 06, 2005
days like these
sometimes.... living itself is so tiresome and difficulT!
i think on days like these it just isn't worth it... to live-anymore...
but you can't really pause life.. take a break and return?
i think on days like these it just isn't worth it... to live-anymore...
but you can't really pause life.. take a break and return?
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Sufficiently Drunk!
Its such a funny thing to think of.. when is? a person.... sufficiently drunk?
It took him thrice the effort it usually does...
was he sufficiently drunk when he made the confession?
or when she took him to a room in the marriott?
or when he puked at home or broke a beer bottle...
well.. last nite was abt a lot more i think...
anyway... so we went to drink and had to drink more..
and then we went home and had to drink still more
and then they took us out partying.. or tried..
but bapu ensured.. we didn't get too far.. bapu's happy b-day dry day..
n then the terraces were locked.. so v jst sat at home n drank more :S
n then i accomodated myself on a bed....
woke up at noon... to a asleep-huose..
and then.. we micro-waved some coffee... some conversation... the newsppr.. n the fukin matrimonial if u blv moron kids..
but all in all a beautiful mornin followed by a relaxing afternoon.. let me complete the evening by digging through a book.
good-day to u also plp!
It took him thrice the effort it usually does...
was he sufficiently drunk when he made the confession?
or when she took him to a room in the marriott?
or when he puked at home or broke a beer bottle...
well.. last nite was abt a lot more i think...
anyway... so we went to drink and had to drink more..
and then we went home and had to drink still more
and then they took us out partying.. or tried..
but bapu ensured.. we didn't get too far.. bapu's happy b-day dry day..
n then the terraces were locked.. so v jst sat at home n drank more :S
n then i accomodated myself on a bed....
woke up at noon... to a asleep-huose..
and then.. we micro-waved some coffee... some conversation... the newsppr.. n the fukin matrimonial if u blv moron kids..
but all in all a beautiful mornin followed by a relaxing afternoon.. let me complete the evening by digging through a book.
good-day to u also plp!
Saturday, September 24, 2005
i went for a movie today... to this multiplex which was within 100 mts of 2 other equally large multi-plexes...
kinda odd.. almost no1'd believe this 5 yrs back.. more importantly no1'd imagine they'd all be running close to house-full ....
anyway.. while there.. i was thinking it'd be so cool.. to study the operations of a mall or how they do all the internal things.. like what we do see is the clean front but the amount of back-end work involved would be so phenomeonal.. and so much fun to study... now tht is the kinda corporate project i'd be really happy doing...
maybe i should try something there.. though i am realyl lazy abuot these things.. so if any of you guys can figure out some-way where i can get a chance to work with 1 of these stores.. pour in your suggestions...
anyway the point of discussing stores was... i parked my car in the basement of the mall today.. and then after the film.. when we came down.. we realised the basement goes upto 2 levels... since i'd gone up after parking through the drive-in area... and after the film used the elevator to get down.. i felt rather dis-oriented and out of sorts on where to locate my car...
at this point i split my friends into teams to go look for the car... ehehehehhe (trust the mgmt students to have a planned approach) and then we realised its on the other basement level...
reminds me i'd read once.. that it used to happen in the US that they had multiples levels of parkings.. and ppl wud tend to forget where they'd parked and be moving aroudn aim-lessly.. and then one of the innovative solutions was to use fruits as symbols to differentiate floors.. coz numbers ppl easily forget... i rem smilin to myself when i read this..
n i smiled today again to think... soon this might be the case with my city.. and i might park my car on the water-melon level coz i like the fruit so much ;)
kinda odd.. almost no1'd believe this 5 yrs back.. more importantly no1'd imagine they'd all be running close to house-full ....
anyway.. while there.. i was thinking it'd be so cool.. to study the operations of a mall or how they do all the internal things.. like what we do see is the clean front but the amount of back-end work involved would be so phenomeonal.. and so much fun to study... now tht is the kinda corporate project i'd be really happy doing...
maybe i should try something there.. though i am realyl lazy abuot these things.. so if any of you guys can figure out some-way where i can get a chance to work with 1 of these stores.. pour in your suggestions...
anyway the point of discussing stores was... i parked my car in the basement of the mall today.. and then after the film.. when we came down.. we realised the basement goes upto 2 levels... since i'd gone up after parking through the drive-in area... and after the film used the elevator to get down.. i felt rather dis-oriented and out of sorts on where to locate my car...
at this point i split my friends into teams to go look for the car... ehehehehhe (trust the mgmt students to have a planned approach) and then we realised its on the other basement level...
reminds me i'd read once.. that it used to happen in the US that they had multiples levels of parkings.. and ppl wud tend to forget where they'd parked and be moving aroudn aim-lessly.. and then one of the innovative solutions was to use fruits as symbols to differentiate floors.. coz numbers ppl easily forget... i rem smilin to myself when i read this..
n i smiled today again to think... soon this might be the case with my city.. and i might park my car on the water-melon level coz i like the fruit so much ;)
Monday, September 19, 2005
Park-lane
Parked on a half pavement of the city-street at 3:30 in the morning.. listening to some inane music that says “so take, take me home” I wonder what home is and how much distance separates me from this home.. looking outside.. the silhouette of a city, a concrete jungle all-asleep… street-lights with all the towers and people in them asleep..
As rain drops patter on my window I am sitting in this town of “English Weather”
Its difficult to search for oneself when you don’t know what you are looking for.. makes the quest a tad more difficult…
The luxury of an almost empty 4 lane road, the car to park at the corner of this road, a laptop to tap-on and maybe an internet card to be online even from here would to a large extent be all that I’d expect and be content with, if I could get…
As the music was shut off by chance suddenly silence surrounds us except for the odd groaning of an over-strained 100 cc bike engine rode like it was a ducati….
My optimistic clock shows the time as 1:13 and the wind that blows is almost the only sound to be heard…
Driving to this place as I drove by her house.. I remembered her kitchen… how we’d sat on the slab… and she’d made coffee in another life…
More 100 cc maniacs.. SOME form of muslim morcha this is… they’re never for a cause never for a reason.. the only reason for a morcha is itself..
Anyway.. again remembering her… there was so much about her that was also unique, the way she said things were always better when they were less messy…
The way she looked with her thick-rimmed glasses and small beautiful eyes…
Reminds me of a brilliant quote from before sun-set.. let me try and look for it now.. to end this post…
Memories are wonderful things, if you don't have to deal with the past.
As rain drops patter on my window I am sitting in this town of “English Weather”
Its difficult to search for oneself when you don’t know what you are looking for.. makes the quest a tad more difficult…
The luxury of an almost empty 4 lane road, the car to park at the corner of this road, a laptop to tap-on and maybe an internet card to be online even from here would to a large extent be all that I’d expect and be content with, if I could get…
As the music was shut off by chance suddenly silence surrounds us except for the odd groaning of an over-strained 100 cc bike engine rode like it was a ducati….
My optimistic clock shows the time as 1:13 and the wind that blows is almost the only sound to be heard…
Driving to this place as I drove by her house.. I remembered her kitchen… how we’d sat on the slab… and she’d made coffee in another life…
More 100 cc maniacs.. SOME form of muslim morcha this is… they’re never for a cause never for a reason.. the only reason for a morcha is itself..
Anyway.. again remembering her… there was so much about her that was also unique, the way she said things were always better when they were less messy…
The way she looked with her thick-rimmed glasses and small beautiful eyes…
Reminds me of a brilliant quote from before sun-set.. let me try and look for it now.. to end this post…
Memories are wonderful things, if you don't have to deal with the past.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
once upon a time....
ONE of the most extreme forms of pure sexual tension i have felt with another person was in one of the simplest gestures known to man-kind...
we'd gone for a film... in a group heh.. there's something oddly beautiful.. about start-ups.. romantic about romance if that doesnt sound too obscure.. which lets you do so much more when you freshly meet a person... makes it kinda intriguin even to know you can-not really hang out with a person.. alone.. so anyone.. we went for a movie... and ofcourse we sat together...
and then from under the arm-rest.. i hunted for her hand... the movie was special... one of the better films to have come out .. .in the last few yrs.. .but what made it better still was the clasping of that hand... the intensity that was directed.. the energy almost with which i held on to her.. words fail me as i try to describe the intensity of that moment.. but being in it.. was special..
simple things like these... just holding her hand.. can sometimes generate a more intense feeling than being in her...
we'd gone for a film... in a group heh.. there's something oddly beautiful.. about start-ups.. romantic about romance if that doesnt sound too obscure.. which lets you do so much more when you freshly meet a person... makes it kinda intriguin even to know you can-not really hang out with a person.. alone.. so anyone.. we went for a movie... and ofcourse we sat together...
and then from under the arm-rest.. i hunted for her hand... the movie was special... one of the better films to have come out .. .in the last few yrs.. .but what made it better still was the clasping of that hand... the intensity that was directed.. the energy almost with which i held on to her.. words fail me as i try to describe the intensity of that moment.. but being in it.. was special..
simple things like these... just holding her hand.. can sometimes generate a more intense feeling than being in her...
Friday, September 16, 2005
LOST IN TRANSLATION
from meeku to vbv...
vbv to veerya
veerya to lil boy
lil boy to vebbu...
vebbu to vb...
vb.. to v2....
i wonder which one of them is me and where is life headed anyway???
vbv to veerya
veerya to lil boy
lil boy to vebbu...
vebbu to vb...
vb.. to v2....
i wonder which one of them is me and where is life headed anyway???
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
movie goers
heh.. thats what we used to call ourselves... some 5 yrs back now....
when me sabby n vikku used to go to cine magic and watch all the films that released...
cine magic was this safe heaven that played all the new english films that'd release.. in some obscure show.. and there'd always be tickets.. life was good then..
now after all these yrs.. only me n sabby r left here.. n we also barely manage to scramble thru sometime for these movies... god bless these holi-days...
anyway.. today after requiem for a dream.. i went for Dansh ... dansh means sting.. pretty intriguin.. i didn't know that.. anyway.. dansh is about the militancy that happened in Mrizoram in 1980's before it was declared a seperate state.. their fighting for liberation and stuff like that.. must see in a lot of ways..
when it had jst about started.. or rather all along i had a fair idea it would be different.. most people would classify these films as bad.. and yet i try and see as many of them as i can help myself to...
some glaring examples always come to mind. .some were exceptionally good.. some were exceptionally bad... like hazaron khwahisheh aisi... chai pani... white noise... dhoop.. hyderabad blues.. (which in a lot of ways started this trend)
all of these films.. almost all of them.. at some point of time seem glaringly bad.. are very unprofessional or not slick enough.. but each one of them.. has a message.. a reason for them to be there... there is a clear cut purpose why the person made that film.. and i think that usually is reason enough to make me want to go to a theatre...
i'd much rather see a million more such films than a technical marvel which had no reason to be made in the first place...
what i learnt from this film... it taught me or showed.. that a mob.. or a group of people have no identity of the people left.. they are no longer representing the beliefs even, that these people stand for.. a mob comes to life has an identity of its own and only the mob can be held responsible or accountable for the actions.. the group of individuals have almost nothing in common with the mob...
maybe after a healthy enough dosage of these i have lost the ability to appreciate the fine qualities or refinments in a film..
when me sabby n vikku used to go to cine magic and watch all the films that released...
cine magic was this safe heaven that played all the new english films that'd release.. in some obscure show.. and there'd always be tickets.. life was good then..
now after all these yrs.. only me n sabby r left here.. n we also barely manage to scramble thru sometime for these movies... god bless these holi-days...
anyway.. today after requiem for a dream.. i went for Dansh ... dansh means sting.. pretty intriguin.. i didn't know that.. anyway.. dansh is about the militancy that happened in Mrizoram in 1980's before it was declared a seperate state.. their fighting for liberation and stuff like that.. must see in a lot of ways..
when it had jst about started.. or rather all along i had a fair idea it would be different.. most people would classify these films as bad.. and yet i try and see as many of them as i can help myself to...
some glaring examples always come to mind. .some were exceptionally good.. some were exceptionally bad... like hazaron khwahisheh aisi... chai pani... white noise... dhoop.. hyderabad blues.. (which in a lot of ways started this trend)
all of these films.. almost all of them.. at some point of time seem glaringly bad.. are very unprofessional or not slick enough.. but each one of them.. has a message.. a reason for them to be there... there is a clear cut purpose why the person made that film.. and i think that usually is reason enough to make me want to go to a theatre...
i'd much rather see a million more such films than a technical marvel which had no reason to be made in the first place...
what i learnt from this film... it taught me or showed.. that a mob.. or a group of people have no identity of the people left.. they are no longer representing the beliefs even, that these people stand for.. a mob comes to life has an identity of its own and only the mob can be held responsible or accountable for the actions.. the group of individuals have almost nothing in common with the mob...
maybe after a healthy enough dosage of these i have lost the ability to appreciate the fine qualities or refinments in a film..
a requiem
for a dream....
just saw the film... what a film.. its like my life... almost...
starting with four normal ppl it tracks their journey to becoming four scums of society...
its funny how you see them start as normal people and how they end up as they do...
makes me wonder.. how easy it is for something like that to happen to some of us.. .it wouldn't even require too much luck or chance for that to happen.. such things usually have a funny way of taking care of themselves...
anyway... a must watch for every optimist... a reality check we all need
just saw the film... what a film.. its like my life... almost...
starting with four normal ppl it tracks their journey to becoming four scums of society...
its funny how you see them start as normal people and how they end up as they do...
makes me wonder.. how easy it is for something like that to happen to some of us.. .it wouldn't even require too much luck or chance for that to happen.. such things usually have a funny way of taking care of themselves...
anyway... a must watch for every optimist... a reality check we all need
Saturday, September 03, 2005
post-posting
It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)
- K's Choice - Not an Addict....
so i write this... post event.. its over.. finally 1 event gone down the drain.. or so much effort which eventually amounted to very little... she said a good event is also about successful execution.. it was rather alright executed i guess.. but it didn't have a zing... there was nothin special.. there was no sense of joy.. delirium.. just a sense of its over.. i don't know what or how much that sense stands for.. some people were happy.. some were congratulating each other.. but how many of them did how much for it.. how much did i do? it all seems like an irrelevant question... how much did i gain.. learn or accomplish by doing this...
maybe or hopefully i can say i made 2 good friends.. and had the opportunity of working with 2 fun ppl for this event.. i'd wanted to work with some of them.. so that was nice... but then the purpose is yet missing... this blog is now starting to lose its purpose i think.. even the blog no longer has a meaning...
Fresh Perspective: -
they were all working together.. it was fun working with all of them... a lot of people a lot of ideas.. a lot of fun.. a lot of adrenaline.. a lot of intellectual stimulation... friends and their friends and their friends and their friends.. all fun loving like minded people... more and more of them get together.. and it's like a never ending family.. suddenly life seems fun... as there are lots of fun things happening. .it a domino effect of positivity... and then one day.. there is a fight.. a difference of opinion..
do we then divide into factions? is there bad blood? ( i don't understand the meaning of this anymore)
all the same it reminds me of a very bad low-budget film shot in the middle east called "stop"
one of the cast would stay.. when enough things had gone bad for her.. she'd jst shout "STOP" like saying it could actually make all those evil things stop...
when we get to the evil lines.. we will find out.. i think
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)
- K's Choice - Not an Addict....
so i write this... post event.. its over.. finally 1 event gone down the drain.. or so much effort which eventually amounted to very little... she said a good event is also about successful execution.. it was rather alright executed i guess.. but it didn't have a zing... there was nothin special.. there was no sense of joy.. delirium.. just a sense of its over.. i don't know what or how much that sense stands for.. some people were happy.. some were congratulating each other.. but how many of them did how much for it.. how much did i do? it all seems like an irrelevant question... how much did i gain.. learn or accomplish by doing this...
maybe or hopefully i can say i made 2 good friends.. and had the opportunity of working with 2 fun ppl for this event.. i'd wanted to work with some of them.. so that was nice... but then the purpose is yet missing... this blog is now starting to lose its purpose i think.. even the blog no longer has a meaning...
Fresh Perspective: -
they were all working together.. it was fun working with all of them... a lot of people a lot of ideas.. a lot of fun.. a lot of adrenaline.. a lot of intellectual stimulation... friends and their friends and their friends and their friends.. all fun loving like minded people... more and more of them get together.. and it's like a never ending family.. suddenly life seems fun... as there are lots of fun things happening. .it a domino effect of positivity... and then one day.. there is a fight.. a difference of opinion..
do we then divide into factions? is there bad blood? ( i don't understand the meaning of this anymore)
all the same it reminds me of a very bad low-budget film shot in the middle east called "stop"
one of the cast would stay.. when enough things had gone bad for her.. she'd jst shout "STOP" like saying it could actually make all those evil things stop...
when we get to the evil lines.. we will find out.. i think
Thursday, September 01, 2005
MOVIN' along
hmm... last few days have been a blur.. next few days will be a blur too...
i have been messing up a few important things in life.. coz the mental orientation towards them is missing...
and then decent amount of things have been trying hard enough to fall into place also... must appreciate that when you are part of too much.. you somehow lose the relevance of what you're doing and why...
being under-slept... walking into a house when everyone is asleep... and leaving the house within an hour of waking up... are some of the realities i have come to terms with.. over the last few weeks... soon ofcourse the orientation will change.. and my goal or my objective so to speak will be re-defined into a seperate mould...
some ppl i know have found new love.. someone else i know has fallen in love again... someone else also enjoys being in love...
which reminds of the film love actually.... did you guys see it in theatres locally? they'd cut 1 of the sub-plots in the indian version... there were apparently a blue-film couple.. which also fall in love.. while shooting one of their films...
kinda intriguin an idea.. makes me wanna re-visit the film.... some............day
i have been messing up a few important things in life.. coz the mental orientation towards them is missing...
and then decent amount of things have been trying hard enough to fall into place also... must appreciate that when you are part of too much.. you somehow lose the relevance of what you're doing and why...
being under-slept... walking into a house when everyone is asleep... and leaving the house within an hour of waking up... are some of the realities i have come to terms with.. over the last few weeks... soon ofcourse the orientation will change.. and my goal or my objective so to speak will be re-defined into a seperate mould...
some ppl i know have found new love.. someone else i know has fallen in love again... someone else also enjoys being in love...
which reminds of the film love actually.... did you guys see it in theatres locally? they'd cut 1 of the sub-plots in the indian version... there were apparently a blue-film couple.. which also fall in love.. while shooting one of their films...
kinda intriguin an idea.. makes me wanna re-visit the film.... some............day
Saturday, August 27, 2005
POINTlessness
its amazing how much you can realise about yourself once you say something out loud.. and how easily it gets re-inforced if you repeat it ample amount of times...
the point of my pointlessness or how i feel dis-interested in everything was something that started out as a passing reference and then when i put more and more thought to it.. the only thing i see is that i am a part of so much and yet i am apart from all of it... it wouldn't make me the slightest of difference if almost any of it stopped existing tomorrow. i'd probably find a fresh substitute for it and continue like nothing changed.
existing.. living.. couldn't be jst about getting from today to tmrw.. and hopefully trying to enjoy the journey...
i wish someday i can find a purpose sound and meaningful enough to change the mood of my listless life... right now i guess we could even settle for someone who can make all of this seem a lil more interesting....
we can be heroes.... just for one-day!
the point of my pointlessness or how i feel dis-interested in everything was something that started out as a passing reference and then when i put more and more thought to it.. the only thing i see is that i am a part of so much and yet i am apart from all of it... it wouldn't make me the slightest of difference if almost any of it stopped existing tomorrow. i'd probably find a fresh substitute for it and continue like nothing changed.
existing.. living.. couldn't be jst about getting from today to tmrw.. and hopefully trying to enjoy the journey...
i wish someday i can find a purpose sound and meaningful enough to change the mood of my listless life... right now i guess we could even settle for someone who can make all of this seem a lil more interesting....
we can be heroes.... just for one-day!
Friday, August 26, 2005
AB & Friends
as i write this... its close to 4 am... its yet raining in mumbai... and i'm listening to xl ki kudiyaan waah bhai waah... i feel so much like a part of a b-school... i was talking to someone from SP Jain this mornin.. and discussing the chix there.. then i spent the whole day at nmims.. and am listening to songs recorded by iim-c and xlri kids...
this is ofcourse my 2nd attempt at writing this post.. the last one i cudn't recover... due to the roughly 15 hours that i took to write that thing... all the same.. last nite.. 4 of us were drinking.. and there were 4 other ppl with us... to celebrate so much.. but mainly celebrate each other now that i think of it... the way he said "its all under control" when he puked and locked himself in the loo for 1.5 hours... when he broke a beer bottle and when he refused to eat and drink vodka neat..
there is this fun feeling.. this really nice positive glint about finding new nice people who you know you'd want in your life for the next 20 yrs... who're brilliant and simple and such wonderful people.. mostly these friendships are more valuable than relationships too.. as they tend to last that much longer...
but then all the drink n discussion remind him of her... force him to think about her... him ruing over her.. and she starts thinking about him.. and once again the edges start blurring.. the vision gets distorted... n then a familiar sound comes to mind
Everything's so blurryand everyone's so fakeand everybody's emptyand everything is so messed uppre-occupied without youI cannot live at allMy whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawlYou could be my someoneyou could be my sceneyou know that i'll protect youfrom all of the obsceneI wonder what your doingimagine where you arethere's oceans in between usbut that's not very far
this is ofcourse my 2nd attempt at writing this post.. the last one i cudn't recover... due to the roughly 15 hours that i took to write that thing... all the same.. last nite.. 4 of us were drinking.. and there were 4 other ppl with us... to celebrate so much.. but mainly celebrate each other now that i think of it... the way he said "its all under control" when he puked and locked himself in the loo for 1.5 hours... when he broke a beer bottle and when he refused to eat and drink vodka neat..
there is this fun feeling.. this really nice positive glint about finding new nice people who you know you'd want in your life for the next 20 yrs... who're brilliant and simple and such wonderful people.. mostly these friendships are more valuable than relationships too.. as they tend to last that much longer...
but then all the drink n discussion remind him of her... force him to think about her... him ruing over her.. and she starts thinking about him.. and once again the edges start blurring.. the vision gets distorted... n then a familiar sound comes to mind
Everything's so blurryand everyone's so fakeand everybody's emptyand everything is so messed uppre-occupied without youI cannot live at allMy whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawlYou could be my someoneyou could be my sceneyou know that i'll protect youfrom all of the obsceneI wonder what your doingimagine where you arethere's oceans in between usbut that's not very far
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
ever wondered... how much more beautiful things look.. when you blur the edges... go fwd at breath-taking speeds... its kinda like speed-dating only better... speed-living if you can call it that.. where you don't think just do.. its an interesting approach to life.. where yuo keep yourself so busy so occupied.. you run from deadline to deadline ... meeting to meeting.. but never really meet anyone or stop for anything...i wonder if you try to go fwd that fast.. do you really go fwd.. or is it more like going round in circles and being in the same position...
besidz.. after a certain age.. i think it becomes difficult to define positive growth or learning... this reminds me of the post about stere-o-typing or having a "funda" of life.. in middle-age.. would that be growth then?
hmm.. in this quest for nothing... i almost forgot.. i have no time left to read.. i haven't read something interesting.. met someone interesting.. in so long now... life should have these ppl coming in.. interminently.. tht make u sit up n take notice.. or maybe we shuold just do our bit and the rest follows...
she calls me the ultimate chase boy....
Thursday, August 18, 2005
i want to have something... with love in it
well.. what i read was actually the reciprocal of this... a lil cryptic unnecessarily i realise.. but maybe i am give the 5 am let-go...
anyway... i read this and my first reaction was the song "what's love got to do with it"
heh.. over-exposed under-studied.. over-discussed and pretty pointless.. debate rages on.. i shall try not to lose focus..
loving anyway is more convenient and easy when its loving a book? loving a song? loving a phone?
ask the poor boy who was cornered at the AB table tonight.. life is difficult.. life is elsewhere...
i slept at 5 am 3 nights back coz i was playing nfs2
i slept at 4 am last nite coz i was working on a presentation
i sleep at 5 am again tonight coz i was finishing off SOM write-up...
either i'm working too hard... or i'm way-too-inefficient!
anyway... i read this and my first reaction was the song "what's love got to do with it"
heh.. over-exposed under-studied.. over-discussed and pretty pointless.. debate rages on.. i shall try not to lose focus..
loving anyway is more convenient and easy when its loving a book? loving a song? loving a phone?
ask the poor boy who was cornered at the AB table tonight.. life is difficult.. life is elsewhere...
i slept at 5 am 3 nights back coz i was playing nfs2
i slept at 4 am last nite coz i was working on a presentation
i sleep at 5 am again tonight coz i was finishing off SOM write-up...
either i'm working too hard... or i'm way-too-inefficient!
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
interpreting the interpreter
so... i guess as the title suggests.. i saw interpreter this evening.... ok afternoon... anyway.. each movie.. has an under-lying theme.. this one line... one scene.. one msg.. tht is usually a sub-sub-plot of it.. but is, the learning i take home after watching that film.
i've had this kind of feeling after very many films, but since i can't rem any of the previous ones i will share with you the lesson learnt from the interpreter
The key to get a person out of your life is ... to change the door locks and your cell phone number.
Now most of you kids, living in mumbai.. ok since 2 ppl read my blog.. 1/2 of you ppl might not consider it very relevant.. since well u live in home with other ppl.. yada yada yada...
actually all of u do.. so... well...
i've had this kind of feeling after very many films, but since i can't rem any of the previous ones i will share with you the lesson learnt from the interpreter
The key to get a person out of your life is ... to change the door locks and your cell phone number.
Now most of you kids, living in mumbai.. ok since 2 ppl read my blog.. 1/2 of you ppl might not consider it very relevant.. since well u live in home with other ppl.. yada yada yada...
actually all of u do.. so... well...
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
while i attend college..
Part 1 :
so.. i was jst observing in my class today... middle-aged people... some of them.. or maybe all of them.. come in with this school of thought... this value system or this set of beliefs... to put it colloquially... its "their funda of life" and almost anything you talk to them, can finalyl easily boil down to their funda in life.. its not about anything else.. but their fundas...
and how sometimes.. it can get outrageously annoying... i was just wondering.. when i hit middle-age.. will i also have a funda in life? and will this? then? become someone else's problem?
Part 2 :
Today.. we had a class in CSR (for the uninitiated - corporate social responsibility) and in this lecture... some groups were making presentation... so my enthu class-mates as ever were asking questions after the presentation.. the case was of bayer (germany company) which had stopped using some environmentally harmful chemical in their home-country... but was yet using it... in India.. coz.. german laws prohibited it.. and indian laws were not really taking much of a stand on it...
and then this guy asks the group that was presenting.... that... if the government has not taken a stand against it... how can you blame the company for making that chemical.. that as long as the government is not making it illegal... how can yuo call it a violation of the company's CSR if they didn't stop mfg tht chemical...
now.. i have never really claimed to be particularly attentive.. or particularly in love with my studies my course or my college.. BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD can these people read the FULL-FORM of the class they're attending? CORPORATE social responsibility..
if it's not the corporates responsibility when they're polluting the environment... then who's is it
?!!!
but such is life...
Part 3 :
The other day.. this really bad prof was giving a class on quant.. n she really cudn't teach....
n then FINALLY when she did solve a sum... the whole class erupted into a wild round of applause...
now this prof of ours has a very live n let live approach to teaching.. so u can do anything in her class.. excpet something to disturb her.. so a LARGE section of the class was sleeping (in the last few benches) and when the eruption of applause happened all these people were disturbed from their slumber.. and woke up rather uneasily...
the look of irritation and dis-dain that they had towards their peers for disturbing them from making the most of the lecture.. was was... PricelesS!
so.. i was jst observing in my class today... middle-aged people... some of them.. or maybe all of them.. come in with this school of thought... this value system or this set of beliefs... to put it colloquially... its "their funda of life" and almost anything you talk to them, can finalyl easily boil down to their funda in life.. its not about anything else.. but their fundas...
and how sometimes.. it can get outrageously annoying... i was just wondering.. when i hit middle-age.. will i also have a funda in life? and will this? then? become someone else's problem?
Part 2 :
Today.. we had a class in CSR (for the uninitiated - corporate social responsibility) and in this lecture... some groups were making presentation... so my enthu class-mates as ever were asking questions after the presentation.. the case was of bayer (germany company) which had stopped using some environmentally harmful chemical in their home-country... but was yet using it... in India.. coz.. german laws prohibited it.. and indian laws were not really taking much of a stand on it...
and then this guy asks the group that was presenting.... that... if the government has not taken a stand against it... how can you blame the company for making that chemical.. that as long as the government is not making it illegal... how can yuo call it a violation of the company's CSR if they didn't stop mfg tht chemical...
now.. i have never really claimed to be particularly attentive.. or particularly in love with my studies my course or my college.. BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD can these people read the FULL-FORM of the class they're attending? CORPORATE social responsibility..
if it's not the corporates responsibility when they're polluting the environment... then who's is it
?!!!
but such is life...
Part 3 :
The other day.. this really bad prof was giving a class on quant.. n she really cudn't teach....
n then FINALLY when she did solve a sum... the whole class erupted into a wild round of applause...
now this prof of ours has a very live n let live approach to teaching.. so u can do anything in her class.. excpet something to disturb her.. so a LARGE section of the class was sleeping (in the last few benches) and when the eruption of applause happened all these people were disturbed from their slumber.. and woke up rather uneasily...
the look of irritation and dis-dain that they had towards their peers for disturbing them from making the most of the lecture.. was was... PricelesS!
Sunday, July 31, 2005
the game of TAG
this may or may not interest you guys.. but here's a peak into my life ;)
three names I go by:
1)Vaibhav2)Meeku3)Veerya
joy… isn’t tht enough.. I dun think I need to write more
Three things I like about myself:
1)tht I can write? or almost
2)tht I made good friends very long back
3)tht I ensured some of them stayed for longer than considered possible
Three things I don't like about myself:
1)tht I am good at pro-crastinating…
2)tht I tend to repeat my mistakes in innovative new ways
3)tht I really can’t get away often-enough!
Three things that don't scare me...anymore...:
1)rains? I don’t think they ever did.. but after Tuesday I doubt they ever willl...
ok.. I really can’t think of things I am not scared of anymore n used to be..maybe
2) crashing my car maybe.. practice makes perfect they say.. n I’ve really been thru so many car-crashes
three things that yet scare me:
1)cockroaches
2)other rodents n pests
3)fear of mediocricty n acceptance of the same
Three essentials:
1)sex
2)lies n
3) videotape
good film? who knows?
Three things I like in the opposite sex:
for convenience sake.. and for varun.. I am gay :D
Three things that I want to do badly now:
1)get done with mr. murdoch’s life.. apparently not badly enough or I’d be reading that instead of doing this
2)find that cute girl’s number or bump into her or something.. yknow something exciting
3)prolly get a home-theatre upstairs so I can conveniently enjoy the rains
not as badly as the above three...but,yet wanna do:
4)get a house like that fountainhead guy had? with the mirrors on all sides on a high-rise or something?
5)retire…
Three careers I am considering right now:redundant question.. I am planning retirement
Three places I'd love to go on a vacation:
1) ladakh
2)any other quite place
3)any other picturesque place provided I have interesting company
Three kids' names I like (Why?):
Kashish… this is my bit for population control
more than Three things to do before dying:
sleep peacefully one night...
wake up fresh in the morning..
do somethin i liked all day
physically exert myself to ensure i am tired by the end of the day
sleep peacefully again...
Three people who get to take this wonderful quiz:
punnu… coz its lilp’s thing to do
I think I have very few friends… such is life…
three names I go by:
1)Vaibhav2)Meeku3)Veerya
joy… isn’t tht enough.. I dun think I need to write more
Three things I like about myself:
1)tht I can write? or almost
2)tht I made good friends very long back
3)tht I ensured some of them stayed for longer than considered possible
Three things I don't like about myself:
1)tht I am good at pro-crastinating…
2)tht I tend to repeat my mistakes in innovative new ways
3)tht I really can’t get away often-enough!
Three things that don't scare me...anymore...:
1)rains? I don’t think they ever did.. but after Tuesday I doubt they ever willl...
ok.. I really can’t think of things I am not scared of anymore n used to be..maybe
2) crashing my car maybe.. practice makes perfect they say.. n I’ve really been thru so many car-crashes
three things that yet scare me:
1)cockroaches
2)other rodents n pests
3)fear of mediocricty n acceptance of the same
Three essentials:
1)sex
2)lies n
3) videotape
good film? who knows?
Three things I like in the opposite sex:
for convenience sake.. and for varun.. I am gay :D
Three things that I want to do badly now:
1)get done with mr. murdoch’s life.. apparently not badly enough or I’d be reading that instead of doing this
2)find that cute girl’s number or bump into her or something.. yknow something exciting
3)prolly get a home-theatre upstairs so I can conveniently enjoy the rains
not as badly as the above three...but,yet wanna do:
4)get a house like that fountainhead guy had? with the mirrors on all sides on a high-rise or something?
5)retire…
Three careers I am considering right now:redundant question.. I am planning retirement
Three places I'd love to go on a vacation:
1) ladakh
2)any other quite place
3)any other picturesque place provided I have interesting company
Three kids' names I like (Why?):
Kashish… this is my bit for population control
more than Three things to do before dying:
sleep peacefully one night...
wake up fresh in the morning..
do somethin i liked all day
physically exert myself to ensure i am tired by the end of the day
sleep peacefully again...
Three people who get to take this wonderful quiz:
punnu… coz its lilp’s thing to do
I think I have very few friends… such is life…
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
the smile on her face..
The smile that she breaks into... not just in her face.. or her eyes.. but a full-bodied grin where every inch of her says that this is exactly what she wanted.. this is what she was waiting for...
at this point.. the contention is not what you are doing.. or what is exepected off you.. or not even what y're capable of doing... but its a lot more about who you are... the person which is you.. is what drives this feeling makes people do the things that they do.. and is the only reason for that reaction... and sometimes feels like that.. is.. the only true feeling of companionship you CAN have... rest is after-all only about two-like-minded people collaborating because they believe in the same thing.. anyway!
Spot Quiz – Do you love a person for what they are? or because you love them you come to cherish their actions?
at this point.. the contention is not what you are doing.. or what is exepected off you.. or not even what y're capable of doing... but its a lot more about who you are... the person which is you.. is what drives this feeling makes people do the things that they do.. and is the only reason for that reaction... and sometimes feels like that.. is.. the only true feeling of companionship you CAN have... rest is after-all only about two-like-minded people collaborating because they believe in the same thing.. anyway!
Spot Quiz – Do you love a person for what they are? or because you love them you come to cherish their actions?
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Paused life...
and a week has passed since i was meant to buy the phone.. . do those things... i am not gonna care abt the presentations.. but the books all yet remain... life's kinda scary sometimes.. but then there r the better things which make life worth putting up with... like the e-cell in disguise.. which is actually a booze-fund collecting mechanism... (god bless empty ideas)
and then the million odd ppl who subscribe to these ideas.. are nothing less than god's angels sent down for the general good of man-kind!
n in the course of this week.. i read one of the most interesting books ever written or concieved by a person.. something really exceptional.. all u ppl shld try 2 read.. thoguh there r actualyl abt 2 ppl who do read this blog once in a while..
n i am yet confused abt my phones... and new n new models keep entering the race... i think 1100 is yet the best phone i could buy!
and then the million odd ppl who subscribe to these ideas.. are nothing less than god's angels sent down for the general good of man-kind!
n in the course of this week.. i read one of the most interesting books ever written or concieved by a person.. something really exceptional.. all u ppl shld try 2 read.. thoguh there r actualyl abt 2 ppl who do read this blog once in a while..
n i am yet confused abt my phones... and new n new models keep entering the race... i think 1100 is yet the best phone i could buy!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
FF
life.. seems in fast-forward...
fast-forward of shunning away all the important work..
not doing anything and yet not finding time for anything
in my alleged diary.. the entries say... 9 subjects to study
7 books to read
5 presentations to work on
3 pending tasks from the past
and 1 phone to buy!
fast-forward of shunning away all the important work..
not doing anything and yet not finding time for anything
in my alleged diary.. the entries say... 9 subjects to study
7 books to read
5 presentations to work on
3 pending tasks from the past
and 1 phone to buy!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Da-Kar
I am the boy who drives the green 800-the meanest piece of rusted metal on the face of this city... today it stalled... and ensured that we cudn't do anything to make it run.. so it is parked at coll over nite.. we may nto be allowed to stay there over-nite.. but it is staying on our behalf...
long live the car!
long live the car!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Don't FU*K with my heart
"I wonder If i take you home
would you still be in love baby
... love baby"
Simplicity as ever... is OH-SO-BEAUTIFUL
and well... Black-eyed-peas seem to have hit the nail on the head... i guess the only ever better description of this question was when PJ Harvey said...
"i can't blv yr life's so complex
when i all i wanna do is sit here n watch u undress
this is love this is love yeah i'm feeling loved"
would you still be in love baby
... love baby"
Simplicity as ever... is OH-SO-BEAUTIFUL
and well... Black-eyed-peas seem to have hit the nail on the head... i guess the only ever better description of this question was when PJ Harvey said...
"i can't blv yr life's so complex
when i all i wanna do is sit here n watch u undress
this is love this is love yeah i'm feeling loved"
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
expense account...
never mcuh of an acounts person.. not even remotely interested in financial subjects...
a few days back for curiosity sake.. i started keeping my daily spend accounts.... and like they say... FACT is stranger than fiction...
god save my money! i cant seem to save any of it :)
a few days back for curiosity sake.. i started keeping my daily spend accounts.... and like they say... FACT is stranger than fiction...
god save my money! i cant seem to save any of it :)
Sunday, July 03, 2005
the thoughts of me
the more-less work i have (funny sounding word) the more i think about things essentially irrelevant!
i thought of another fun line.. this girl i think i have seen aroud.. i dun know her. yet.. i dunno if she is dumb in a fun-way.. or fun in a dumb-way?
actually on second thoughts this applies to another 1 of my friends also... what joy!
this reminds me of his cool line.. where out-look was more important than look-out... hehehe
anyway.. the thoughts that depress me ... are of things.. essentially immaterial.. and i guess the longer i let myself think of them.. the more they will disappoint and bother me... i should've got into a better college.. hmm... lets hope i know how to make this better.. this suddenly is a post... UN-appropriate for this blog... so i stop!
i thought of another fun line.. this girl i think i have seen aroud.. i dun know her. yet.. i dunno if she is dumb in a fun-way.. or fun in a dumb-way?
actually on second thoughts this applies to another 1 of my friends also... what joy!
this reminds me of his cool line.. where out-look was more important than look-out... hehehe
anyway.. the thoughts that depress me ... are of things.. essentially immaterial.. and i guess the longer i let myself think of them.. the more they will disappoint and bother me... i should've got into a better college.. hmm... lets hope i know how to make this better.. this suddenly is a post... UN-appropriate for this blog... so i stop!
Friday, July 01, 2005
Welcome back!
This is just a welcome back post.. coz i'd forgotten the stupid p/w and login to this ID... and then pun the saviour... as ever...
anyway.. i guess in a lot of ways the inner-vbv was hibernating last month..
what with 10 ppl living in this house.. the outer vbv had a tuff time picking his way thru the mess.. if the inner guy were also out.. who knows where we'd all have been..
so well.. on that note we begin
anyway.. i guess in a lot of ways the inner-vbv was hibernating last month..
what with 10 ppl living in this house.. the outer vbv had a tuff time picking his way thru the mess.. if the inner guy were also out.. who knows where we'd all have been..
so well.. on that note we begin
Monday, May 30, 2005
Ice-screamin' AWAY!
Hello peoples... well.. manglore eggs further on... i had a beautiful evening on the beach yesterday.. serene white.. clear beaches.. and clean of people also.. and that to on a saturday evening... to enjoy a weekend sun-set on a quite beach is very very.. idyllic.. ofcourse silver is nice.. and quite at mid-night.. but well..
and then.. i went for Bunty aur Babli here.. you rem the thing they say.. sometimes.. you don't realise. how privilidged you are.. well something similar happd.. the movies here (hindi movies) have little audience here.. and so they come relatively late.. but to cash-in on the movie craze.. some ppl show the pirated VCD's immediately.. and the quality well.. as ever.. leaves a lot to be desired.. they're even CUT in - between.. so well its QUITE a sad experience.. and then.. yesterday.. before the movie... i went.. to Hangyo! thats the other brand besides Ideal.. and had an ice-cream there :D..
the Hungyo ice-cream.. was Spl. Gudbad it had.. again choc and 2 other scoops with jelly and a few more random things.. what joy!! and then.. i saw an ice-cream parlor today.. called Igloo? i think.. it looked v. cool.. i will go there tmrw i think.. :D...
and then.. there aren't many mosquitos here.. YAY!
and stuff here is cheaper :) like the Taj here... has an un-limited beer n kebab fest.. for 300 rs only.. NOW if i only had some good company to spend an evening of beer and kebab's with... hmmm..
i spent today.. first sleeping till 11.. then watching tv till 1.. then i was out.. walking the streets of manglore.. some ppl think.. walking is the best way to know a city.. so i gave it a good-try...
i found a lounge bar - liquid lounge and then a CCD... its funny how much we (or atleast I) dig for familiarity in a foreign place ( and then.. south is hardly foreign) anyway... so then.. in my walking around.. i sorta passed the lunch hour.. so the good kitchen's were all closed... and then.. being in the city of ice-cream parlours.. i had ice-cream for lunch... triple-scoop :P pista + choclate + black currant... :) and then.. a couple of hours later.. i even had a coffee + veg puff at the CCD.... and then.. i went book-store.. hunting.. book-store.. coz... i was hoping to find some books which the stores here might keep.. and might not be so easily available in mumbai (once more.. looking for familiar territory) and then.. i bought 4 random oldish books.. none of them are entirely unique to the area i think.. but they would take some digging in any part of the country.. and since i had the time for that here.. i found them.. i heard there are 2 more bookstores in this city.. so i will try and find them tmrw...
and then.. i went for Bunty aur Babli here.. you rem the thing they say.. sometimes.. you don't realise. how privilidged you are.. well something similar happd.. the movies here (hindi movies) have little audience here.. and so they come relatively late.. but to cash-in on the movie craze.. some ppl show the pirated VCD's immediately.. and the quality well.. as ever.. leaves a lot to be desired.. they're even CUT in - between.. so well its QUITE a sad experience.. and then.. yesterday.. before the movie... i went.. to Hangyo! thats the other brand besides Ideal.. and had an ice-cream there :D..
the Hungyo ice-cream.. was Spl. Gudbad it had.. again choc and 2 other scoops with jelly and a few more random things.. what joy!! and then.. i saw an ice-cream parlor today.. called Igloo? i think.. it looked v. cool.. i will go there tmrw i think.. :D...
and then.. there aren't many mosquitos here.. YAY!
and stuff here is cheaper :) like the Taj here... has an un-limited beer n kebab fest.. for 300 rs only.. NOW if i only had some good company to spend an evening of beer and kebab's with... hmmm..
i spent today.. first sleeping till 11.. then watching tv till 1.. then i was out.. walking the streets of manglore.. some ppl think.. walking is the best way to know a city.. so i gave it a good-try...
i found a lounge bar - liquid lounge and then a CCD... its funny how much we (or atleast I) dig for familiarity in a foreign place ( and then.. south is hardly foreign) anyway... so then.. in my walking around.. i sorta passed the lunch hour.. so the good kitchen's were all closed... and then.. being in the city of ice-cream parlours.. i had ice-cream for lunch... triple-scoop :P pista + choclate + black currant... :) and then.. a couple of hours later.. i even had a coffee + veg puff at the CCD.... and then.. i went book-store.. hunting.. book-store.. coz... i was hoping to find some books which the stores here might keep.. and might not be so easily available in mumbai (once more.. looking for familiar territory) and then.. i bought 4 random oldish books.. none of them are entirely unique to the area i think.. but they would take some digging in any part of the country.. and since i had the time for that here.. i found them.. i heard there are 2 more bookstores in this city.. so i will try and find them tmrw...
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Life is a boat!
Did anyone except me see this film? it was a typical american film made one fine day i think.. about an estranged kid and a rich re-married father.. and how the sun and the father bond.. over the father's life-long dream of building a house... kinda corny.. stupid.. what-the-hell film.. but it was an afternoon well spent many years back...
Why i bring this up now... coz last week.. i saw the UEFA cup final (for the uninitiated thats soccer) with a couple of my friends... and wished.. LIFE were a soccer match.. heh
well.. the match was between AC Milan (very strong favorites) and Liverpool (more of underdogs who got here by chance form or just a lot of heart... SUCH underdogs infact that they haven't even qualified to participate in the UEFA cup for next year...) so the competition is well clearly defined i guess.. and then 45 mins into the match.. AC Milan had scored 3 goals... and were half-way home with another trophy...
but then came our beautiful men in red from behind.. to score.. 3 goals in 6 mins... and then all was hunky-dory again.. the world was a better place... ofcourse over the next 30 odd mins of play and another 30 mins of extra time... nothing much happened there were a few chances on both sides... god ofcourse was favoring our brave men in red who'd come from behind to equalize the 3 goals.. and then hold fort the next 60 odd mins..
then it came down to penalty-shoot-outs... by most standards a VERY CRUEL way to judge a team's year long performance.. but then.. such is life sometimes? and it came down to penalty shoot-outs.. and to not bore you any further and cut-thru-the-chase... Liverpool WON :D :D :D
now wouldn't life be so much nicer if it were a futbol match.. instead of a boat.. you'd get rewarded for the efforts... and well.. your existence essentially would be entertaining for others too.
I'm badwith endings so in conclusion i would like to end.
Why i bring this up now... coz last week.. i saw the UEFA cup final (for the uninitiated thats soccer) with a couple of my friends... and wished.. LIFE were a soccer match.. heh
well.. the match was between AC Milan (very strong favorites) and Liverpool (more of underdogs who got here by chance form or just a lot of heart... SUCH underdogs infact that they haven't even qualified to participate in the UEFA cup for next year...) so the competition is well clearly defined i guess.. and then 45 mins into the match.. AC Milan had scored 3 goals... and were half-way home with another trophy...
but then came our beautiful men in red from behind.. to score.. 3 goals in 6 mins... and then all was hunky-dory again.. the world was a better place... ofcourse over the next 30 odd mins of play and another 30 mins of extra time... nothing much happened there were a few chances on both sides... god ofcourse was favoring our brave men in red who'd come from behind to equalize the 3 goals.. and then hold fort the next 60 odd mins..
then it came down to penalty-shoot-outs... by most standards a VERY CRUEL way to judge a team's year long performance.. but then.. such is life sometimes? and it came down to penalty shoot-outs.. and to not bore you any further and cut-thru-the-chase... Liverpool WON :D :D :D
now wouldn't life be so much nicer if it were a futbol match.. instead of a boat.. you'd get rewarded for the efforts... and well.. your existence essentially would be entertaining for others too.
I'm badwith endings so in conclusion i would like to end.
Manglored
I am in the city of ice-cream parlors... by the looks of it..there are 2 major brands.. ideal and one more... and there are lots of ice-cream parlors all around. Ofcourse i haven't been to any so i will refrain from passing judgements on the quality of the products offered but all in all.. it seems nice and refreshing a change after a lot of mumbai.
its a fun place.. trying to compare it to mumbai is stupid.. so i will not try... but eyes always search for the familiar.. so i always look at the malls in a city.. what kinda shops do they have.. does this place have a shoppers stop? (heh if they ever knew of my devotion.. they'd have a platinum card for buyers like me)
anyway... its kinda hot.. isn't everywhere in this time of the yr.. (unless yr in london ofcourse) but yeah.. nice place.. not many tall buildings.. and the city has a rough edge to it... they made it all over the mountains.. no-one really bothered enough to level the land before constructing on it.. so its full of ups and downs..
will post more.. as i discover more.. for now i like the music their reliance-web-world plays..
its not LOUD n JARRISH like the mumbai web-worlds..
its a fun place.. trying to compare it to mumbai is stupid.. so i will not try... but eyes always search for the familiar.. so i always look at the malls in a city.. what kinda shops do they have.. does this place have a shoppers stop? (heh if they ever knew of my devotion.. they'd have a platinum card for buyers like me)
anyway... its kinda hot.. isn't everywhere in this time of the yr.. (unless yr in london ofcourse) but yeah.. nice place.. not many tall buildings.. and the city has a rough edge to it... they made it all over the mountains.. no-one really bothered enough to level the land before constructing on it.. so its full of ups and downs..
will post more.. as i discover more.. for now i like the music their reliance-web-world plays..
its not LOUD n JARRISH like the mumbai web-worlds..
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
BeeR here?
i wanted beer all afternoon..
since roughly 2 pm..
its been 4 hours..
i've asked abt 4 ppl i think... and all of them have turned me down..
so i am yet a deprived man...
i'd go drink alone.. but beer seems a group drink.. and i think good convo enhances the taste of good beer..
so i shall let the sun-set.. on that thuoght.. maybe the moon'll come out with a golden-bubbly hue?
since roughly 2 pm..
its been 4 hours..
i've asked abt 4 ppl i think... and all of them have turned me down..
so i am yet a deprived man...
i'd go drink alone.. but beer seems a group drink.. and i think good convo enhances the taste of good beer..
so i shall let the sun-set.. on that thuoght.. maybe the moon'll come out with a golden-bubbly hue?
in pursuit of nothingness..
yesterday..... cruel world tried so hard to ruin my day...
yesterday..... i met old friends and troubles went away :)
heh... so from being a crusader for justice.. i just ended up spending the whole evening with old college gang..
course it meant.. i did not keep my date with the cops...
maybe one of these days i will complain against them..
for now we await my telephone bill...
with baited breath.. for the 27th of May....
all contributions welcome...
yesterday..... i met old friends and troubles went away :)
heh... so from being a crusader for justice.. i just ended up spending the whole evening with old college gang..
course it meant.. i did not keep my date with the cops...
maybe one of these days i will complain against them..
for now we await my telephone bill...
with baited breath.. for the 27th of May....
all contributions welcome...
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Crusade against the system
This comes as something new.. to someone like me. I'm not really the kinds to bother much about the system and how exactly it works, try not to bother myself much with such trivialities.
But over the last few months of doing nothing.. i have had terrible experiences with my Cell phone service provider.. my office courier and the traffic cops...
Now most people who care about such things would tell you that this is a lot of usual suspects as far as mal-services are concerned...
But maybe its the doing nothing.. or reaching the threshold of my patience... i am taking action against all of them together...
from the cops i expect almost nothing except troubling them for about an hour or more.. from airtel i expect a little more.. and they have in someways started pay-back by giving me free 100 sms.. .*wink wink*
and well from my courier guys... i expect my 3000 rupees back.. and ofcourse they'll get a lot of grief in the process.....
one of these days when i stop procrastinating... i shall write letters to all 3.. and post them here...
for now i have a date with the cops at 8 pm at the airport chowki ;)
But over the last few months of doing nothing.. i have had terrible experiences with my Cell phone service provider.. my office courier and the traffic cops...
Now most people who care about such things would tell you that this is a lot of usual suspects as far as mal-services are concerned...
But maybe its the doing nothing.. or reaching the threshold of my patience... i am taking action against all of them together...
from the cops i expect almost nothing except troubling them for about an hour or more.. from airtel i expect a little more.. and they have in someways started pay-back by giving me free 100 sms.. .*wink wink*
and well from my courier guys... i expect my 3000 rupees back.. and ofcourse they'll get a lot of grief in the process.....
one of these days when i stop procrastinating... i shall write letters to all 3.. and post them here...
for now i have a date with the cops at 8 pm at the airport chowki ;)
Monday, May 23, 2005
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