post-posting

It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)
- K's Choice - Not an Addict....

so i write this... post event.. its over.. finally 1 event gone down the drain.. or so much effort which eventually amounted to very little... she said a good event is also about successful execution.. it was rather alright executed i guess.. but it didn't have a zing... there was nothin special.. there was no sense of joy.. delirium.. just a sense of its over.. i don't know what or how much that sense stands for.. some people were happy.. some were congratulating each other.. but how many of them did how much for it.. how much did i do? it all seems like an irrelevant question... how much did i gain.. learn or accomplish by doing this...

maybe or hopefully i can say i made 2 good friends.. and had the opportunity of working with 2 fun ppl for this event.. i'd wanted to work with some of them.. so that was nice... but then the purpose is yet missing... this blog is now starting to lose its purpose i think.. even the blog no longer has a meaning...


Fresh Perspective: -

they were all working together.. it was fun working with all of them... a lot of people a lot of ideas.. a lot of fun.. a lot of adrenaline.. a lot of intellectual stimulation... friends and their friends and their friends and their friends.. all fun loving like minded people... more and more of them get together.. and it's like a never ending family.. suddenly life seems fun... as there are lots of fun things happening. .it a domino effect of positivity... and then one day.. there is a fight.. a difference of opinion..

do we then divide into factions? is there bad blood? ( i don't understand the meaning of this anymore)

all the same it reminds me of a very bad low-budget film shot in the middle east called "stop"

one of the cast would stay.. when enough things had gone bad for her.. she'd jst shout "STOP" like saying it could actually make all those evil things stop...

when we get to the evil lines.. we will find out.. i think